Contradiction

Am I crazy or insane?
Zany or right-brained
It remains a mystery like whether "Craigy's" my name
It isn't today, what a shame
And only I'm to blame
If only I wasn't so lame
I'd commit to or kiss the dame
Yes, me and you is what I'm saying
Playing? No I'm praying
I'm leaving, but I'm staying
Beauty comes in the sun plus the rain
Beauty comes distinguishing pleasure from the pain
So don't wash the bad down the drain
Just don't let it consume your brain